so hi. it has been ages since i last visited this blog. i've been busy with my project paper, teaching practicum and all. i got SK Bukit Tunggal as my teaching place, along with my 3 other close friends, ummi, nasha and mimi. my first day there was nerve wrecking, left unisza at 640am (THAT early) cause we didn't want to stuck up in traffic jam, first day of working should leave good first impression on the employers, shouldn't it? haha ok then we arrived at school at 700am, WE WERE THE FIRST 4 TEACHERS TO ARRIVE THAT DAY hahaha oh the first senior assistant of the school arrived just right after us, his car was behind ours. good first impression? we got that hah. during the assembly, we prayed hard not to be introduced by the headmaster 'cause we were nervous as hell, but i guess our prayers didn't go through when the headmaster suddenly said, 'harini kita ada 4 orang guru pelatih baru dari unisza. semua 4 teachers boleh bangun dan perkenalkan diri masing2'. imagine having to introduce ourselves in front of approximately 600 teachers and students. when it was my turn, i stuttered a bit, 'assa... assalamualaikum and....(looked if there's non muslim) good morning, i'm amal..... hayati, just call me teacher...ummm amal and i...i came from sela... kajang, selangor'. haha trust me i was really nervous at that time, my hands were cold, my whole body was trembling and i had stomachache (due to nervousness, yes). but during the first day in the end, I FELT GOOD! TEACHER AMAL FELT GOOD, probably because all teachers and students warmly welcomed us, and we felt appreciated. pictures? hehe

took lots of pictures cause we were quite free for our first week.

and i've been assigned to teach 2 ibnu amru and 4 ibnu amru, no minor subjects which is alhamdulillah haha cause honestly i suck in bm, seni, maths, pjk or whatever. my first class was a relief class at 5 ibnu abbas(last class). they were stubborn, they were rude, they didn't listen to me, they didn't see me as a teacher. i was upset, i nearly gave up there, i almost cried at that time, i held back for 20 minutes. i sat at the teacher's table, watched them making loud noises, ran from the back to the front, fought with their friends. was i invisible? i kept thinking to myself, 'this is my first class and its a mess, will i fail during my real teaching, won't the kids listen to me like how they are doing right now? will i fail? what should i do?' reflected myself.... i shouldn't give up now, that was my first class, and it was only a relief class. thought about myself when i was in standard 5 which was 9 years ago, what did i want from a teacher, what did i expect from a teacher, what made me got interested in learning english etc... told myself to do a self reflection that night haha and it worked during my first real class at 4 ibnu amru! 

gonna continue my teaching practicum story later ya! (like anyone ever reads my blog, pft)