No.

I feel like I might be losing myself again. I think i am happy but I'm not. I feel that my world is coming down again. I don't know what to do. Everyone around me sees this big smile on my face but inside i feel this empty void. I don't tell anyone whats wrong. No one. Not even my “best friends”. I just want all this pain and confusion to end. I regret not ending it sooner sometimes but i say to myself that it eventually gets betters, maybe not now but hopefully soon. But it just gets worst. I feel that I'm going to fail in everything i do. so why even try and go on? I don't know anymore. I'm so lost.